MikelWJ - Dear Diary | Текст песни

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My dear diary, today was a long day at school, and i haven't really eaten anything yet today, but i guess thats good.
I just wanted to write something real quick before i was off to bed.
So here it goes.
Dear diary, i'm fourteen and i always feel so nervous.
Tell me why is it at everyone is so perfect.
Why i feel so worthless and they look so happy while lately for me my mood has been so crappy.
And i have come to belive things that i'm seeing on magazines and TV of every single perfect being all the girls with perfect bodies and such amazing skin.
Oh how i would kill to live the life that they are in.
I've been trying to lose weight over the past couple weeks throwing up after meals on the rare times that i eat.
But that isn't enough.
I still need to do much more to get this guy to notice me people wonder what for?
There's no room in my tummy for food that isn't funny.
I don't wanna be people's dummy but either way i feel dumpy.
Most of the time i am left here just thinking to myself "oh god is it worth it" "or do i need some help?"
I've been used by guys i've been hurt by girls i've been hit by my mom and cursed by the world.
So i keep losing weight gust trying to be perfect.
I'm waiting for somebody to tell me that i'm worth it.
And that guy that i mentioned back when i was fourteen he's my fiance now i guess that i'm livin' the dream.
Got a small house, a nice car and a good life.
But me arms are still scarred from using my own knife.
But he accepts me how i am and he knows about my past and after all of that he still says we gunna last.
And i love him, i love him.
I love him with all my heart.
I honestly couldn't take it if we got fulled apart if i could say one thing to me at aged fourteen it would be that you'll find a guy who will treat you like a queen.
It gets better than this don't worry about your size.
And never think you're alone someone out there hears your cries.
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